It is currently 4am in Scotland as I am writing this (hopefully not as you read it however, because you deserve your sleep!) I woke up in a cold sweat with my heart hammering out of my chest. I can’t remember my nightmare but I am now unable to get back to sleep, despite having tried repeatedly. So I thought I would at least try to be productive and get my review done for the day.
As I promised in Monday‘s post, here is my second review of the week – and on a Thursday! I very kindly got a copy of this sent to me through Netgalley. As always the fact that I was gifted this book did not sway my opinion whatsoever, as always my thoughts are all my own. Now that that’s out of the way let’s hop into my review.
** P.S – This discusses Sex, Rape, Suicide, Teen Pregnancy and Under-age Drinking**
**It’s definitely triggering, but there is a great trigger warning at the start of the book so you are aware, it wasn’t an issue for me but just so you know **
Title: I Hate You, I Love You (Part 1)
*It is called Broken Love Book 2 – But I read it as standalone.
Author: Bailey B.
Genres: New Adult, Romance, Contemporary, Hate to Love
Publication Date: May 1st 2020
Pages: 278 pages
When I Read It: 16th August 2020
Goodreads Rating: 4.32 Stars
She’s beautiful. Fierce. Nothing at all like the girl I used to know, which is absolutely terrifying because Danika Winters is the only person outside of that room who knows the truth.
She could ruin me, and I’m not talking about my reputation. I couldn’t give two shits about what the kids at St. A’s think. I’m talking major, life altering, jail time ruined.
I’ll do whatever it takes to keep her quiet. Even if it means destroying the only person I’ve ever cared about.
They say when you meet the person you’re supposed to be with, time stops. Your brain takes in every microdetail, committing it all to memory, and you’re hit with this unexplainable need. A need to get to know that person, talk to that person, simply be beside that person. And then there’s the kiss. A fire spreading, earth-shattering, kiss that wipes all others from your memory. I’ve felt that pull towards someone once, and it consumed me.
I wasn’t supposed to fall for my middle school best friend. But he wasn’t supposed to break my heart.
My Goodreads Review: *aka my initial thoughts, straight after (and during) reading
This was a decent read.
It had a good story line and touched on some really hard hitting topics but there was a brilliantly written trigger warning at the start and I do believe all of the topics were handled with great care and respect.
The characters were likeable. Especially Logan. I wish there was a bit more humour to balance out the harshness of many of the plot lines. The romance was sweet and I loved how it changed from hate to love, it was so well paced and believable.
I don’t feel like I have many gripes with this book, nothing to stand out and make it bad. But in the same way, there was nothing stand out to make it great. It was just Meh. I decent, quick read if your in the mood for an NA romance with a harsher side. Will I be rushing to pick up the sequel, no. Am I completely ruling out the idea of reading it, no.
A solid 3 stars for a middle of the road read.
My Favourite Quote:
- “Care to Explain, because last time I checked a penis was a super straw meant for making babies.”
Characters: The characters were okay. No-one blew me away.
Danika was a bit meh. The way she treats Gunner at the start I don’t think is called for at all. She is really just trying to anger Logan and I really hate that when someone tries to make another person jealous by playing with another persons feelings – just not okay. No spoilers, but I felt less bad for Gunner by the mid-point of the book. She had a lot of backstory which I liked, but I felt like she didn’t have much of an arc. She came back to her home town after her mum’s death, meets Logan again, drama ensues and that’s it. You don’t find out much about her character – likes, dislikes, goals, dreams etc. I think I would have liked her more if she had more substance to her.
I really liked Logan. I thought his backstory was super interesting and his arc was far more deep and gripping. He really evolved with the plot and you learn so much more about him than you do about Danika. Being the outcast of his family is a big plot point for him and leads to a lot of unimaginable things, but it’s never really explained why he is the outcast in his Mother’s eyes. It’s just excepted that his brother is loved more. I wish we had more of an idea as to why that was but hey – can’t win them all.
I would discuss other characters but you can probably tell that if even the protagonist’s aren’t very developed then none of the secondary ones are either. I never really connected with any of them because of this and despite horrible things happening I just felt meh about it all.
Characters = 6/10
Humour: This really lacked for me. I always think that when you’re tackling such hard topics in your plot it needs to have humour in other chapters to raise the tone and mood of the overall read. Without it, everything just feels too heavy and sad. You need the sad, but then you need the happy to balance it out. Triggering topics can be absolutely incredible (and I think they were handled beautifully here) but without that humour I definitely felt like it was all a little much at times.
Humour = 4/10
Atmosphere: I love things set at a school. I always have. I wish we got more of the actual classes, or of the studying involved in being at school because it felt a little unbelievable. I recall once where she does work outwith class and I think a few other lines might have just aided the believability. I adored the cafeteria scenes, they were so good. The cleeky tables are so accurate – at least to my high school experience. And I really enjoyed the small glimpses into Danika’s past and home life. I wish we had more of the same from Logan, but I understand that there is so much to unpack their it would take a lot to give the same kind of depth as Danika’s home life had.
Atmosphere = 7/10
Writing Style: The writing wasn’t mind-blowing, but it was enjoyable. I liked the dual-POV especially because I enjoyed Logan’s scenes much more than Danika’s. I would definitly read something by Bailey B again because there was something quite comforting about her writing style despite the harshness of everything that was going on.
Writing Style = 7/10
Plot: I enjoyed the plot. I really liked the way the Hate to Love relationship was done. It was super well-paced and no sudden jumps between utter-hatred and adoration which is great. Like I have said a few times now the triggering/hard-hitting side plots were done really well and integrated well with the story. My one gripe is that in the early chapters and in the blurb Logan discusses how Danika could ruin him. She knows something incriminating about him – hence the initial hate between them. Don’t worry no spoilers are coming. As someone who has now read it all, I am still none the wiser as to why he thinks she knows what she knows. It just feels like a bit of an odd whole in the gripping mystery. Especially when so much of the gripping action of the start is focused around this secret he has to keep.
Plot = 8/10
Intrigue: Like I said, the start was super gripping. I read this book in nearly one sitting. (I had a family Sunday lunch to attend) and if not for said event, I would have just read right through. It was the kind of book where every chapter ended on a intriguing note so you were constantly pulled onto the next chapter – and before I knew it I was 70% of the way through and nearly late for my meal out. I don’t know if it was because I stopped, if it was because I had time to evaluate what I actually had been reading rather than just letting it carry me away or if it was because the last 30% was just less gripping but I found the last section more of a slog with less to get excited about. Most of the relationship stuff (the build-up, the tension, the final realisation of feelings etc) has happened at that point, and the last little part felt like it was just all build up for the cliff-hanger/fall-out of this book as to lead up to the part 2.
Intrigue = 7/10
Logic: In general, this was believable. Sadly, way too many of the triggering things discussed happen in real life and I think they were handled in a very respectful yet brutally honest and logical manner. Some of the characters logic and reasoning for doing or not doing certain things (cough cough – Both Danika and Logan’s Dads) was flawed and didn’t make much sense, except for the sake of the main characters not knowing and hence tension but that’s not realistic.
Logic = 7/10
Enjoyment: Like I said in my Goodreads review this book was a very middle of the road read. Nothing that grabbed my attention but nothing that particularly deterred me either. It was another generic NA romance. A decent quick read if it is the kind of thing you are in the mood for.
Enjoyment = 6/10
Relationships: Like I said, I quite liked their Hate to Love relationship, with a bit of childhood friendship thrown into the mix for good merit. I especially loved reading Logan’s interpretation of their growing relationship and seeing him dealing with his feelings etc. I understand the relationship more from his POV, she was his first and only real friend. They have a bond and trust in his eyes. She cares for him.
I see less from her side of things. There seems to just be a magnetic pull for her. She doesn’t ever really explain her feelings. It just seems excepted that she would of course like him, I mean look at him. That kind of thing. Which I don’t really like upon reflection; but at the time I actually wasn’t very aware of how one sided everything in their relationship felt. She definitely cares for Logan, but I don’t know how that jumps to Love – outwith his hotness and general niceness as a person.
There is a definite love triangle element to this also which I didn’t mind initially because it is very one-sided, and not really a triangle. More like just Logan and Danika with a desperate appendage who wants to get laid. I don’t want to spoil anything so I won’t go into it much but I didn’t enjoy the initial treatment of the third wheel of this relationship, I felt it was unfair and cruel – but then things happen where I didn’t feel bad for them anymore.
Relationships = 7/10
Overall Score = 59/90 or 6.5/10
Star Rating: ⭐⭐⭐
That’s all for today’s review folks. I am surprisingly productive at 4 am! Maybe I should write all my blog posts now haha. Anyway! As always, I want to know your thoughts down below, does it sound like your kind of thing? Have you read it? If so did you enjoy it more than I did?
That’s all for today, I will be back with another post tomorrow!